Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Emotionally Stripped

Okay, warning . . . I am in a super silly mood tonight. So, I never know what path things might head down when I start out this way! LOL!!! But, here we go! Hang on girls!

I'll just speak from my heart about what has been going on in my head and see what flows here. I have been a bit distracted lately with thoughts (concerns) about my mother and waiting for test results. We are still waiting. She had a lung biopsy done yesterday. I called her before her appointment and she shared with me that she was afraid. Afraid of the potential pain and the potential outcome. I told her what she could expect it to feel like to help her be prepared.

During the time I was waiting for her to call me back after the procedure . . . I was obsessed with some of the words she had said. Like, I just want to know so we can start doing what needs to be done for the best outcome. We. We. Do you see that. We. That is powerful. My mom is a do it yourself kinda girl and hates to depend on anyone. These past couple (6mth) months of so my mom has been asking me more and more for guidance to help her eat clean and make good food choices. Mom is an awesome cook and has always cooked healthy for the most part, but she has a fierce sweet tooth and had trouble separating from her sugar. But she has done it! She now calls me talking about what grain she tried, and what recipe I sent her that she loves.

So, I'm obsessing . . . how do I reach more women (families) with the life changing health transforming story of clean eating? How will God use me to empower women to know that they have the power to make amazing change in their health. I need a bigger platform! I need to hit a broader group. I need a freakin' megaphone! No. I need my life. I bigger platform to share my story of how eating clean, moving more and healing my body, mind and spirit from the inside out has transformed not only my physique, but my internal health, my relationship with food, my relationship with myself, with my husband and with my God.

At that moment I remember the Performing Beautifully Contest that I had entered and it became evident to me that THAT was the platform I need . . . to start. I need to win that contest. I need that platform. I had totally forgotten about it for two or three days. I, myself had forgotten to vote for me daily. My hubby was still faithfully voting and posting the link daily, but I was not. I went on the website to vote and was surprised to learn that I was in the number 10 position. I was so excited! New hope surged up! I asked friends to remember to vote and they posted the link on their FB pages and asked their friends to vote. In just a couple hours those votes bumped me to number 9! Momentum! Support! Encouragement! Wind beneath my wings! I felt like I could soar and that a huge prayer was being answered while I was waiting to hear back from my mother.

When mom called me I could tell immediately that she was in a lot of pain. She sounded drained. She said she hurt really bad like she had been hit in the chest and the back. It saddened me then and makes my eyes well up now as I think about my sweet mom being in pain, being afraid and not having a hand to hold. I will be there the next time. I cannot leave a woman I love so dearly to walk that path alone. I wanted to be there to drive her home, put her down for a nap and make her a yummy soup and some roasted veggies. Snuggle up in our jammies and watch some sappy chick flick together.

The power of women, strong women, united in support of each other. Like this community here, where we encourage, support, inspire, motivate, pray for, cry with and cheer on to greatness. Here where the synergistic power is so amazing that I am drawn back time and time again . . . no matter how busy or chaotic my life is at times. I've made some of my best friends here. I cherish your friendship and am honored when you share your dreams, wishes, prayer requests, questions and concerns with me as well as your celebrations, triumphs and transformations. You are amazing. Collectively we move mountains daily.

I had not intended to share any of that. This is suppose to be day 24 of the 28 day Stripped program blog! LOL!!! I haven't shown you much food lately. Sorry. This week is a repeat of the recipes from week two. I will end with a few food pics that I have taken over the past couple days. AND a side by side comparison photo Amy made for me. UGH!

Grilled Sweet Potatoes and Brussel Sprouts. I cut them into cubes, drizzled a little macadamia oil on them, dried rosemary and cinnamon.

Spinach Salad with Chopped Chicken, Tomatoes, Red Onion, Black Beans

Salad with left over bison burger from the night before and strawberries

Tonight's dinner! Grilled Chicken Breast, Farro, Sauteed Zucchini, Mushrooms, Onion w/garlic and asian spice mix.

And the humbling picture.

Notice the 'just get it over with' face on the left! LOL!!! On the left is May 2010, approximately size 14 weighing 180 ish. On the right is April 11, 2011 wearing a size 8 weighing 156. What a difference a year makes! Do the math girls. That is only 24 pounds difference. Average of 2 lbs. a month. Does losing a 2 pounds a month seem worth it? It adds up! or Strips down!

Live beautifully! Be the woman you were created to be and empower others to do the same!

If you have a facebook account and would like to help hoist me up onto that higher platform, I would appreciate it.